I gotta be honest. I was not at my fullest this week.
I was back to procastinating everything again! 🤕
Annoying things like:
- Being at computer until 3AM
- Skipping Lunch?… well not anymore, but eating non-healthy food
- Skipping reading (… a bunch of books actually)
- Skipping the development of my own projects
- Spending too much time on Social Networks
- Not going for a run just because of the rain
It was like this since last week and I’ve been fighting with myself to avoid this, today I’m trying to catch-up all my activities, all my duties, all my responsabilities and objectives.
I’m feeling better now, but not in a way that I’m more relaxed but proud of doing what sometimes I hate or don’t want to do, I am on my way no.
Probably I can fallback again to procastination, I guess we are not inmune to our bad habits or what is highly dangerous to all of us confort zone.
Anyways, we will always find something in the way, the trick is to standup and keep moving forward.
I hope you all have a great week, although I don’t know who read this lol 😆
All these weekends since last year were great.
I feel like me again, right next with my family, creating and sharing memories that will last forever. Not everything is sweet and warm though, we had to experiment difficulties and hard moments which is exactly what Life offer to us and we have to accept and embrace what life has for us all the good and the bad sides, no excuses, no tantrums 😆.
I’ve been also reading a bit bit more… I really wish I could dedicate more time to read more and discover hidden worlds. I’ve been also training at the martial arts gym and I’m making a reasonal progress.
Overall I cannot complain, I’m not that lazy anymore, I’m getting better and better everyday and I’m really proud of me. My road is a big one so I cannot just stop to think or get inspired, I need to keep walking with no rest, I need to keep walking looking only forward and appreciating the new gifts that live give us.
Nothing is easy I know, specially those dreams and objectives that are bigger than other ones, those are hard to get, those hurts in some way.
Keep it up my bro!
Yeah, maybe the song name is incorrect, I’m trying to translate it to english from japanese. It basically talks about a boy who is fifteen years old, it talks about all the feelings he can go through in a single solitary night.
Last year (2022) I’ve been listening random music in youtube.com and I ended up with Yutaka’s music, some people call him the Japanese Kurt Cobain 😄 - dumb people. Firstly I’ve noticed the emotion on how hi sings and the music melody, that was my style I liked it.
Inmediately I searched for the lyrics and I’ve got suprised.
Music it is not about finding lyrics that describe what exactly happened in your life, it is about connecting with the meaning, well, sometimes you have to give your own meaning to a song, but on this particular case, I started to remember when I was fiftheen: AVV School, first time to get lost while drinking, fall in love like if it were the first time. I don’t remember exactly… but yeah, the first kiss from the hearth, walking solo in streets, seeing to people like shadows, feeling unconfortable being at home and family seeing you like a kid and me… myself feeling like a kid but also like a grown-young boy.
I’m dreaming about the future, I’m dreaming about having it all, everything a boy can imagine, nothing material, just freedom. I had no big responsabilities, but I felt like I wanted to escape from jail. One part of me wanted to just walk relaxed in the city without thinking about the time, but my other me wanted to get in trouble, run, scream. One me wanted to be at home listening music but my other me wanted to be hanging out with friends, and my other me wanted to be with that special person, my girlfriend all the time.
I still remember that night at the roof of my house, with the cold wind in the face, staring at the starts and the moon, crying of happiness, trying to think on how I would look like in the future… but just trying, because I was happy enough to just live my present at that moment. I miss those days.